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Hello—

Liburan semester sudah tiba! Bukan seperti liburan-liburan sekolah yang cuman paling lama 1 bulan, liburan semester aku kebetulan kurang lebih sampai 3 bulan. There are actually a lot of days, aren’t it? hahah. Untuk mengisi hari-hari liburan, tentunya ketemu teman-teman. Tapiii, selain teman-teman, kali ini, seperti dikutip dari tulisan aku diatas, aku pingin berada diantara orang-orang yang bukan biasa aku hang-out with. Kalau temen-temen hang-out pasti ya sama-sama aja, aku udah kenal mereka. I’m expecting getting something new from people. The fact that, even bad people has their own good really made me think of i should probably dig the good out of them and make a learn to myself. Plus, knowing your own bad and good is actually a really good idea either. So i guess, i’m gonna call this as self-upgrading. 

Rencana liburan kali ini dimulai dengan ikut pergi sama temen-temen mama, nginep sendiri ke saudara yang sejujurnya aku kurang deket, kurang banyak ngobrol, and it's for a week without my parents, Flying-solo, dan go overseas with my friends.

Belakangan ini aku ngerasa kurang banget dalam segala aspek. Sampai aku bahkan gatau what i’m good at, what i really want for my future, and even when i found out what i’m good at, i don’t even THAT SO SURE to work on it dan go for it. Sounds terrible, doesn’t it? It’s like lack of self awareness. And it does feel bad.

But, i'm really enjoying this holiday, so far. Chill days. I could watch good movies, do writing, explore new songs, bands, new thoughts. Well, not so important and productive as well but gaining something new for self counted as productive, no? hahaha, well. At least i’m still enjoying my time here.

And even i’m away from my boifriend, that doesn’t mean i’m not thinking about him all the time. (In case he reads it) So, yeah.

Enjoy ur holiday, bai! xxo