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jaaaadi tiba2 gue jadi buka2 blog lagii deh. udah lama pingin nulis2 gajelas lagi disini karna ternyata ada aja yang buka blog gue loowwhh hahahaha

kayak judulnya gue baru buka2 foto-foto lama, buka blog2 temen2 lama yang udah gapernah keurus, baca-baca cerita jadul jaman2 smp yang lagi hits-hitsnya punya blog sama hits-hitsnya foto2 pake kamera sony erricson, atau yang udah rada kerenan dikit, jaman nya pake bb curve.

gue KANGEN temen-temen smp! Walaupun dulu gue drama banget masih labil-labilnya :')

gue KANGEN sama masa-masa kelas 8 dimana masa-masa seru tanpa beban
apalagi sama 8.5 kita sampe bikin geng "lamacrew" padahal sih judulnya delapan lima crew tapi isinya kok cuma 14 orang HAHA

KANGEN ngebolang sama lamacrew :') main kerumah opin, ngebopung di komplek Royal Residence, naik sepeda, ngumpul LENGKAP 14 orang cerita-cerita, ngakakin kejadian aneh2, main juber, sampe maleeess banget pulang..

KANGEN jalan-jalan ke kota tua.. gatau ngapain kita gajelas! tapi seru nya bukan main.

KANGEN sebangku sama arizha waktu kelas 9! gue merasa sangat kreatif masa2 itu. Dikelas kerjaannya bukan meratiin guru, tapi malah ngobrol everytime, ngasih nickname ke orang-orang, mirip-miripin orang sama binatang :(, ngeliatin muka orang yang lagi serius meratiin guru... terus ketawain. Gambar muka guru terus lomba mirip2an hasil.... terus ketawain lagi. Gabut parah. Untung pinter gue kelas 9 ranking 6 :P Tapi gue berdampak buruk buat arizha yang biasanya ranking 3 dia jadi pemalas ga pernah 10 besar sekarang HAHAHA

KANGEN kelas 7 juga! Dimana dulu temen sepergilaan gue ituu VIA yang sekarang jadi anak gaul super hits :p dulu kita rebel ABIS. Make sepatu ngga pernah bener, dateng les selalu telat, nyampe tempat les ngobrol, berisik, dimarahin, nyatet. Hampir setiap hari kita main kerumah. Makaaaan terus kaya babi. Berurusan sama kaka kelas. Nge fans sama justin bieber paraah sampe akhirnya kita memutuskan jijik sama bieber. Ngepoin, ngefans sama anak-anak globaljaya. ke ruang BK mulu sampe afal BU RETNO. Di hukum bareng gara-gara main petak umpet masuk kelas lewat JENDELA. Alhasil disuruh nyapu pulang sekolah :"") FIX GILA tapi kita haappy yuhu!

KANGEN livia kezia rheine yang masih suka main bareng. main kerumah livi paling sering makan baso yang gapernah bosen-bosen sampe sekarang.

KANGEN sama kesolidan 1 angkatan #32 TARPAT yang gakenal gengsi. Kita itu ya KITA. Kita bareng-bareng.

Kadang rasanya pingin balik ke masa-masa indah. Memperbaiki yang seharusnya diperbaiki. Melakukan apa yang harusnya dilakukan. Menghargai setiap menit yang dilewati.
Andai ngumpul-ngumpul sama temen bisa segampang kaya waktu dulu. Sedangkan sekarang udah sibuk sama urusan masing-masing. Janjian ketemuan, jadwal bentrok sana-sini akhirnya ga jadi-jadi ketemu. Kalaupun ketemu ga sengaja, ketemu cuma sekedarnya, karena waktu yang ga mendukung.
Rasa canggung sekarang muncul, beda sama dulu-dulu yang gatau malu, gatau yang namanya gak enakan.
Sekarang mungkin emang ga kayak dulu. Tapi 'dulu' tetep punya kenangan tersendiri yang ga bakal dilupain. #tsah

*nulis post ini sambil throwback ditemenin lagu-lagu The Trees and The Wild yang sempet jadi influence di Tarpat*

GUDNAYT!

hella

So, today i made poems while i was at school. I'm that bored and distracted to even hear the teacher so i decided to write poems and doodling instead of doing nothing. so here it is. sorry for the titleless poetry this is just for fun.


a part of me need an answer
a part of me doesn't want to know
a part of me wanting more
a part of me caring less

one thought against another
we live in a space of choices
two can happen at the same time
the war in one soul

Y.N

**

Pretend

We pretend we're fine

When you know you're dying

We pretend we don't care

When it hurts you like hell

Y.N

So Thats it. MEH.
btw, Im so happy that i found a friend who likes poetries too! (He even made some) and is soooo good in english too. Horai

March 1st

Love.. lust.. life
if it's right
or if it's wrong
who could tell?

when things happen
you can't think
what would happen?
it just happens

                                 Y.N

A**hole

So here it's like.

There's a girl and there's a boy.

The boy suddenly came up from nowhere and started talking to her like he had known her for a long time.

(When the fact was not. They just simply knew each other.)

The girl pretended so, and they're chatting and calling each other for almost everynight for like 1 week.

They still chatted from morning to night, night to morning.

The girl was confused what she's doing. She just let it flew.

One day the boy told her about his feeling in randomly random words.

The girl was not sure about her feeling and this boy.

So, she again pretended like that was a joke or something, in order to break the awkwardness and see the reaction of the boy.

The boy unexpectedly did that too with a little bit dissapointment.

Then the boy stopped greeting her for days.

The girl got confused.

Did she do the wrong thing?

She's just feeling unsure and she didn't have that kind of feeling also.

The boy started to chat with her again.

"It's been a long time" He said.

Then stopped.

Then he made conversations again.

and like that and like that for like ONE YEAR.

The conversation was monoton

she's bored with all those stuffs.

She didn't fall in love with him but she gave a chance. She opened her heart like an opened door that had a lot of guards around it.

Yet the boy thought "You didn't fight for me, so you're not good to me."  He even wrote that on his twitter.
Then left the girl.

The girl was once again pretending like nothing's ever happened.

** 

"Have you fought enough for me?

Have you ever tried to convince me?

Have you ever ask me out so we could have the REAL talk?

You just blame it all over me.

Which made me looked like the wrong one.

Fuck you.

Fuck you anyway."

                                    - The girl. (the unsaid words)